My Roommate Made Her Boyfriend Rape Me

Okay, this happened half a year ago during my freshman year of college. I am a writer but between this just being such an overwhelming experience for me and the experience just being blurry in my mind I don’t think this will be very detailed.

Background: I found out that I was bisexual and into rape kink at around the same age, I was like 8-9 and at this point I knew I liked girls and guys but I didn’t know that it was actually a thing that a lot of people experienced, it was just a fact that I had always known about myself. But then I found porn. I feel like I should say that normally I am a very organized control freakish kind of person, but when I was watching porn I enjoyed watching the rougher ones where the girl was just being thrown around and used as a fucktoy to get the guy off, while she came hard almost despite herself, or in the lesbian porn I discovered, I identified more with the “bottom” or the girl getting fucked. To this day I still get off on the idea of loss of control and not being in charge of how my body is used.

Discovering porn sent me down maybe a “dangerous” path because after that I couldn’t stop touching myself, I was constantly horny and daydreaming about how I wanted the people in my life to fuck me, in church, school, wherever. I flirted with a lot of teachers and while nothing ever happened I’d get gratification at knowing they were looking at my boobs (I was well developed VERY early, I’m 19 and barely fit into a G cup anymore) and fantasized that they wanted to fuck me and how they would do it. To this day being used by a teacher who threatens my grade if I don’t is still one of my favorite fantasies and it never fails to get me unbearably horny. I wanted to be used by a man who just couldn’t control his urges around me anymore because I was such a slutty tease.

When I first met my roommate and her boyfriend we were both pretty shy and quiet and we bonded over how nervous we both were. Once we became friends we got really close and our true personalities came out, she was quite bold about sex and wasn’t afraid to kick me out when she and her boyfriend wanted to do it, eventually we talked about what we liked and didn’t like and I confessed all my, unconventional to say the least, how into the idea of rape I was and how bad it made me feel because I knew there were so many girls who had their lives ruined because of it, and she didn’t judge me at all for it, she said she didn’t really understand it and definitely wasn’t into it but she wouldn’t like call me an awful person or anything, and that was the end of the discussion.

A few weeks after that discussion I woke up to her putting a ball gag in my mouth, I had absolutely no idea what was going on, I was groggy, and I was trying to ask like what the fuck but of course, ball gag. She told me to shut up and that this was going to be everything I ever fantasized about. At this point, I couldn’t even remember our previous conversation and I was thoroughly freaked out, and still trying to communicate through the ball gag, but she had cuffed my hands together and was pulling the big hoodie I slept in over my head.

She was being unusually aggressive and poked me and told me to roll over onto my stomach and pushed me over when I hesitated, she then told me to stick my ass in the air, and since I wasn’t wearing panties and I hesitated again even though she could clearly see that I wasn’t wearing them already. She started smacking my ass harder and I was such a baby about pain that I just did what she wanted even though I was super embarrassed because I have a really small ass that isn’t proportionate to the rest of my body, she didn’t comment and just started playing with my pussy and my knees buckled in shock. She started smacking my ass again, counting this time, I think to fifteen, and then started playing with me again. My natural response to fear was getting wet, has been for years, and she just kept commenting on it, on how I was such a slut for enjoying it and how I really wasn’t kidding about wanting to be raped.

At that point, I finally remembered the conversation and started to relax a bit because it was all making sense, though I was still really on edge about the whole thing, but then her boyfriend knocked on the door and she got up to let him in without undoing my whole situation and I really freaked out. She glared at me to shut up and her whole demeanor shifted when she let her boyfriend in. She was suddenly being sexy and sweet and telling him how she got me ready for him and how much I wanted it and how excited I was, and it hit me that he didn’t know that I had no idea what was going on.

I couldn’t really see him but he had a pretty good view of my pussy and he sounded excited about the whole thing, I was pretty wet so my body was probably giving off the completely wrong impression and my roommate told him to listen to how needy I was and how bad I wanted him, she offered to blow him to get him hard and to torture me, he said he was most of the way there already and that I looked hot with my pussy completely exposed like that. At this point, while she’s blowing him it still didn’t really occur to me that he was actually going to fuck me, so when he eventually gets up and walks over to me and she tells him to just shove it all into me because I was already so wet, I completely froze from disbelief. This is where it all gets hazy for me but I just remember thinking that this couldn’t really be happening and that this had to just be a really realistic dream because there was no way that I was actually getting raped. But then I came, hard. It completely knocked the wind out of me and derailed my train of disbelief, and it felt so fucking good and suddenly I was almost hyperaware. He had at some point brought to be up against his chest with his hand around my throat and was absolutely drilling me, one of the things I had specifically told my roommate I had never enjoyed before but she was telling him to fuck me harder and harder because I was a slut and he didn’t need to be gentle with me. I have no idea what it could be about this guy but this all felt fucking incredible and I quickly came again, a second orgasm during sex being unheard of for me. remaining on my roommate made her BF rape me

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